hi everyone! I bn watching the site for quite a time. a lil about me well for years I bnn telling myself im happy with the way I look basically just lying to myself cuz I cry everytime I shower. so after going thru some drama at work I came to the conclusion the only thing that could make me happy is to be thin the only thing I control is what I eat and that gives me a power on top of all the things I can't control and frustate me. I wanna lose 20 lb by th end of april bn eating 400 a day and working out an hour a day. im so sore!